Doing Something

I just really want to write. Write and coach, speak and step.
I think about doing something, but I feel like I cant. I am tired...mostly sleepy, and I don’t feel like there is anything to write. It seems like I haven’t been able to process my thoughts or experience anything fully. I know there are things happening, but I feel like I am up against a wall.

I think about where I am and how I feel all the time. I think about what I would love to do and what I would be doing if everything was just right in the world. I think about whether or not I am able to do all the things I am thinking about…and while I think, days fly by,

So now, rather than think, I will do something. I am writing for the sake of consistency. Because doing nothing is really not the best option even if I don’t think what I do will be my best. Who cares anyway, everytime, every post can’t be my best, but if I don’t write at all …..if I do nothing at all….

Just thinking can definitely NOT be my best.

My desire to know more,
do more,
be perfect
sometimes keeps me from the business of doing.

I don’t want that to be my story. I think a lot but often find excuses not to do. Or I open my laptop with the intentions of doing work but then I actually just search random things online
Or
I open a word document and stare at it, then close it and move on…

SO now, even though I don’t really have anything to say, I thought it was more important to write, than to think…

Something that somebody said on Greys Anatomy struck a cord with me. He said

“ you don’t find something you love that much, and let it go.”

If I am not able to get out of my head, my schedule, my fears than I will never be able to “do”, and if I don’t “do”….who will?