I see you

It felt like I was the only one in the room.  Maybe to him I was. He spoke with a quiet, strong, confident voice.

“ I see you.”

The simple words brought tears to my eyes and at the same time stopped tears in my heart.  I hadn’t put words to it before, but there was a need for me to be seen.

His acknowledgement made me feel mighty, like I could do anything and be anyone….really, be myself.

All of my movements up to this point had been genuine to me but out of the corner of my eye I always wondered who noticed.  An emptiness that was longing to be filled by the gaze of whoevers attention my actions caught. 

He moves so gracefully and takes such good care of me as I try to navigate this path.  He brought joy to me that I didn’t know was missing and helps me to stand when I don’t have strength of my own.

The room fell silent and got loud at the same time.  I felt like I was birthing, or being birthed.  Joy and hope swept over me.

Words unknown poured out of me and I felt like the angels were singing with me.

The space around me was filled with warmth and I could do nothing but let what was happening, happen.

I was no longer able to stand, brought to a posture that would bear the light weightiness that I was feeling.  Tears streamed down my face, I felt held.

Nothing else mattered. In this moment there was only the two of us. Me broken, Him a healer.

It was then, after I gave everything I had and received at the same time that he spoke those words.

“ I see you.”

I felt wrapped. At once everything else was silent as he repeated, “ I see you and I know you.”

I am not sure that I can do justice to the depth of those words.  If those words could help you, change you, fill you as they did me. 

There was….. is something beautiful and real about the God who I know sees everything, saying that he sees me.  That he cares about me, that he knows me. 

Feeling like in a room full of people, he would focus his attention, love and affection on me.  That he would bring me to my knees and just like that, heal the broken places in my life.  It’s moments like these that make the difference in my life.  Moments when he breaks through and whispers that make love pour out of me as he has poured in. 

The idea that the God that crafted the world with his words would take the time to speak simple earth shattering words to me.

The truth that those words, as deep and meaningful, and personal as they were to me, were not just meant for me.

The reality that no matter how we try to hide and keep him from knowing us…..

he sees us.

The warmth, rather than shame that comes from those words makes the difference.  Him seeing you….seeing me doesn’t make me want to hide.  It makes me appreciate all that I am and all that I can be.  He makes me forget mistakes and fingers pointed. 

When He spoke those words, they felt lasting.  Like he had seen me all along and would continue to see me forever. 

I felt like I was the only one in the room as he brought me to a place of healing.  Let those words be true for you, because even in the madness of life he whispers

“ I see you.”